It's okay not to be 100% motivated all the time..

Note to self:

It’s winter time. 

If you are currently in a northern climate, that means that it is cold, the days are short and not much is happening. You might be experiencing seasonal depression, low amounts of energy, or just a stronger yearning not to get out of bed in the morning.

This is normal and natural. We feel so disconnected from our environment these days that it is easy to forget that we, as humans, are a part of nature. We’re adapted to the seasons.

It’s normal to not have the same level of motivation in winter as you have in summer. There’s a reason that bears go into hibernation, rodents burrow underground, and old animals die this time of year.

From a symbolic perspective, winter is a period of death. This is terrifying to our culture as most people are terrified of death and don’t want to talk about it.

I’m going to try and paint it in a different light.

Throughout Spring, Summer, and Autumn, we spend a lot more time doing things, accumulating experience, and hopefully learning. But to learn, a part of you has to die. You have to let your old understanding of the world die so that it can be updated to fit your new experiences.

This often requires sedentary time to allow for more thinking, meditating, and writing. For me, it’s not an optional thing. I don’t wake up one day and say, its winter, time to become sedentary. No. Rather my body changes like the seasons.

Spring is like new life. I have a flood of new ideas. I become very creative. It’s when I like to start new projects. I have a lot of energy. I start to workout more. I have the urge to clean everything that I own. This is the happiest time of the year for me.

Summer is a burn. My days are longer. I wake up earlier and go to bed later. I spend a lot of time in nature. I get a lot of work done. I also enjoy taking time away from work to have fun and spend time with family and friends. In summer, I’m always doing things and accumulating experience. I spend little time being reflective and adapting to what I learn.

In Fall, I find a way to kick it up a notch. Hunting season comes and I spend a lot of time doing difficult hiking. In the back of my mind, I know winter is coming so I feel like I need to work extra hard to prepare – this is hilarious to my logical mind as I know I work from a computer and can do it all winter long. But the human brain has been around much longer than my personal brain.

Winter is the time when I take account of my belief system. I try to organize thoughts that seem to contradict one another or that don’t serve me. I notice all the bullshit that I’ve been wasting time on. Most importantly, winter is a time where I create space for new things to come into my life. It precedes creation.

The human brain has adapted to coincide with the seasons.
Don’t attach to any one season. If you’re feeling depressed, tired, sluggish, negative, don’t worry, it’s natural and will pass. 

It’s okay. You’re okay. Life is a transformational process. 

Spend more time sitting around with your family drinking coffee or Bourbon or both.

Watch that movie you’ve been meaning to.

Pick up that instrument that’s been patiently waiting for you in your closet.

Open up a notebook, and write about your life and thoughts. Take note of what you did well last year and what you want to accomplish this year.

Most importantly, affirm the process. It is Good and it is serving you, no matter what your mind convinces you when it’s dark out.